First of all, why must you mention what happened yesterday. Why not just look forward? All you think of is the past. Have you even thought of what's gonna happen in the future? Come on. She's the one who ask you out for dinner when your elder son don't bother, when your youngest son don't even know that it's your birthday! And she, she came all the way back from Singapore to have this dinner with you. She say she's paying! And what much more you expect? She changed! Can't you see that?! She used to stay at home all day and do nothing. Did you realize that she've been working this few months over there? You don't care! All that you know and remember is the mistake she've done. Human learns from mistakes. Can't you forgive her? You don't even fucking care to say thank you to her after she pay. Yes, she's late for dinner. But hey, she's the one paying the bill and she's trying her very very best to rush all the way back through the jam! At that time, you never think of saving some food for her. You never! You ask everyone finish the food and when she arrived, she got nothing left to eat. You sure you're a dad? And when she's paying.. You didn't realize that she didn't bring enough money to pay. So of course I offered to pay. And she pays me back! All you care is whether she pays me back or not. I'm your daughter and she's not? Although we don't have the same mom, but she's still my sister! She's your daughter! She's 6 years older than me. So what? You think she can take care of herself and you never once worried about her staying there alone. How can you be like that? I'm 20 now and you're still taking care of me like I'm a child. What about her when she was my age? You never treat her like how are you to me! Never! I never see you tap her shoulder. I never see you show your care. I bet you don't even know how her hair feels like! You ever touch her like you touch me! You didn't pamper her. You didn't care when you're telling everyone that she's useless! I'm telling you, I care! I love her. Please. She's my sister! Do you have any idea how much pain I feel when I see the way you treat her? You don't deserve to have 4 childrens! You DON'T! I rebel! She once did the same too. But why can you forgive me so easily but not her? It's just so unfair! I really really hate you though you're good to me. Simply because you're not good to my mom and my sister!
You asked for my results. I don't bother to tell you about it because you don't understand! You don't know and you don't understand what am I when I'm so stress. You've never seen how I look like 1 nite before the exam before. Mom did! She was so worried and she know I'm forcing myself. What about you? You don't know! When you ask for my results, I knew exactly how you gonna react. If I answer B. You'll say I'm not good enough. Why no A? Why would I want to tell you my results when all you'll say is bullshit to me?
Then you're saying that no one cleans your room for you. It's dirty and all. WTF! You got a GF. She's not handicapped! Mom left you for a reason. And your GF is with you for your money! DUMB! And for your money, she doesn't clean your room. What a shame. So she can only be fucked and not clean your room? Fuck all you want then. I don't give a fuck about you and her. I care about my family, she's not one of them, not even close!
You're complaining I'm always out. Always with my boyfriend. So what you expect me to do? Stay home 24/7? You asked, paktor very happy hor? Not in a happy-for-me tone. Of course I'm happy with him. Or not why would I even be with him? You don't know the reason why I'm always out. It's because I hate staying home. This 'home' don't feel like home! Not at all! So you're not happy for me when you see me happy? Mom complains too. But she sees that I'm super happy when I'm with this guy. She knows. She sees that he's good to me! Did you see what mom sees in my boyfriend?
Dad, I should be proud of you because you raise me up. But, I felt shame instead.
Perhaps you won't understand forever. All you listen is what that bitch say and you never listen to your family. Wait till you don't have money left. Wait till you're an old man and no one cares about you but your family.
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