Sorry ='(

My dad is mad at me.
I didn't realise it until just now.
It's been a very weird day today.
No calls from dad.
No dinner.
No nothing.
No sign of him.

He's back finally.
I was in my room.
Normally, he would have just came in without knocking.
And duh!, no one likes that.
But today, it's different.
He didn't come in.
He didn't talk to me.
I don't care much at first.

So after that, I went down to the living room.
He sees me. Obviously!
And I called, "Dad"
*Silence*
No answer !
He just walks away like I'm transparent, like he didn't sees me at all !

What else can I feel?
I'm hurt !
My heart, which is not recovered is once again breaking into pieces.

Nobody wants me!
Even my dad.
I feel lonely.
I feel unwanted.
I'm alone!
Locked in my room.

For one moment, I wanted to hug my dad real tight and tell him I'm sorry.
But the next moment, after much thoughts, I know I can't do it.
So what I'm doing now is simply just escaping from reality.

I know there's no use making myself suffer like that.
But I have to.
Because I have no courage to talk to my dad right now.