1.26am at Gleneagles hospital

Really, you make my life real interesting (not in a good way of course).
Today was the day I wish I would hit the bed before midnight, wake up the next morning and go to work as I should.
Why did you do this? You think it's fun having me to drive straight to your house so late at night and convince you that you need to go to the hospital to have your stomach wash?
You're 20 this year and you still never think of the consequences that will come after what you did.
You fucking swallowed your whole month's supply of sleeping pills and you think it's funny now?
You told me you don't want to go to the hospital. You don't want to get your stomach washed because it will hurt.
If you know it's gonna be pain already then why are you still doing stupid things like that?
You know that she's left you for 3 months now.
Wake up and grow up already.
Hey, you don't live in your own world.
Things don't go your way all the time.
When would you learn that?
How long do you need to learn that?

You've asked me alot of times, have I let go of the one I love.
I told you yes.
You don't understand how is it possible.
I told you I learn to be smarter to let go.
And you didn't want to believe it all we need to do to let go of someone is to first TRY to let go.
Once you've tried, you can move on to the next step eventually.
Why aren't you trying?
You still keep her pictures and everything in your god damn wallet!
How could you possibly let go like this?
How I wish I have the courage to throw it all away on your behalf even if you would hate me forever.
I don't care.
All I want is to see you stand up again and not being a fool for her anymore.

Im posting this damn post using your phone and I wish you all the best.